This year, I made my way again towards the holiday camp held by Pusat PERMATAPintar in UKM. It's only as long as 3 weeks, but a stay there makes one year elapse ahead of time. It matures me and makes me grow faster.
When I come out, I will never be the same. Life in Kolej Ungku Omar built my will power to do things I'll be reluctant to. As if I have a new switch installed in my control panel.
Will power is never unimportant. All our actions are fueled by motives. To follow motives that we like and we have to is easy, but to follow motives that we have to but don't like requires a match between mind and heart. Our psychology is a bit funny sometimes. We can get stuck in conditions like this. It seems a bit queer that our heart stops our brain sometimes in doing something essential. Will power is a source of fuel for the mind. Yes, we need mental strength to combat despair, pressure, fury and many other things, but don't you agree that we must first solve our internal conflict ?
I patched the tip of the iceberg, but I did not forget the part hidden under the water. I never set it aside. We are a mixture of emotions and rationality. Lose one, and don't consider yourself a living soul. I trust my instincts when I need them. When the brain freezes in a maze of confusion, the heart can always light a torch and lead the way out. I trust my heart as much as I trust my brain. And at the same time, I trust my heart to trust my brain and I trust my brain to trust my heart.
Through the Holiday Camp, I equipped my control panel with many new things. But are they sufficient for me to handle the year to come ? I don't know. I'll just ride through the bushes like a galloping horse, and pick up the berries on the way.
Happy Christmas.
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